It was like I couldn't get enough oxygen, and I couldn't stop crying. a lot of things has been building up inside of me the last couple of days, and I haven't been able to explain it to people. this has nothing to do with not trusting my friends. it's a bit hard to explain, but mainly I don't feel that I can be myself around people my own age, and the people I feel like I can do that with, I often get really attached to(this is why I have been a basket case ever since I left Crete).
People keep telling me that next year is going to be "my year", that it's going to be so great etc...but I am terrified that I am not ready for it, that I can't make myself let go, and be the person that I need to be, why is this so hard???? In one way, I know that I need to do this, in order to grow up, and that I'll regret it for the rest of my life if I don't, but on the other side, I have a growing feeling that I can't do it, and that I never should have said yes to te spot...
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