30.07.10

Hey guys!

This week has been raining away....but started working again last Wednesday, so the weather doesn't really matter, since I'm able to keep myself busy...today, I went to the pool for some training at 10am, took my bike to do some food shopping, and then walked 1 1/5 km to the bus stop to go see 'inception'. the movie was okey, but actually a bit exhausting for a Friday night, too much action for me really...

Tomorrow, we're having guests, and I'm brainstorming for dessert ideas, picture will arrive on Sunday or Monday:-)

positive

Okey,

I'm a bit more positive these days, 1 reason:

1. I've lost almost 7 kilos in 7 weeks!

Back in January, in my last blog 'I choose my choice', I wrote down, that one of my new years resolutions was to loose at least 10 kilos, I am on my way to happiness! My price to myself for reaching my goal weight, is a small star tattoo between my shoulders. I feel that, for me to be inspired to reach my goal, I need a price that inspires me to reach it. the results are quite inspiring as well, and when I reach my goal, I will write here, what I did to accomplish it...I suppose it will be in a couple of months, hopefully....

Anyway, I'm back after a slight melt down, tomorrow I start working again, I think the distraction will be good for me, I need to think about something else...Going to call it an early night tonight, ttyl!

Song of the day: Rihanna - Te Amo

Movie of the week: Juno

panic

Last night, I panicked, or at least that's what I think it was...

It was like I couldn't get enough oxygen, and I couldn't stop crying. a lot of things has been building up inside of me the last couple of days, and I haven't been able to explain it to people. this has nothing to do with not trusting my friends. it's a bit hard to explain, but mainly I don't feel that I can be myself around people my own age, and the people I feel like I can do that with, I often get really attached to(this is why I have been a basket case ever since I left Crete).

People keep telling me that next year is going to be "my year", that it's going to be so great etc...but I am terrified that I am not ready for it, that I can't make myself let go, and be the person that I need to be, why is this so hard???? In one way, I know that I need to do this, in order to grow up, and that I'll regret it for the rest of my life if I don't, but on the other side, I have a growing feeling that I can't do it, and that I never should have said yes to te spot...

I'm back:-)

I'm Back, from 2 AMAZING weeks in Paleochora, Crete!

Had the best time, met the most wonderful people, and frankly, I didn't want to go back. We had 35 degrees for 2 weeks straight, a little bit windy but not too bad...

Now the fear is approaching again. In about a month, I will start a one year course at Sund folkehøgskole in Trøndelag, and I am quite afraid that I am not ready to be so far away on my own. I am going up there, without knowing anyone else, and I have never been the most outgoing person. It's kind of hard for me, meeting people, I don't always feel like I can be myself with everyone else, and I am afraid that I am not independent enough to live alone...

But, back to Crete. I met the most amazing woman, called Sarah. She's from Germany, and she has lived in Greece for 5 years. I feel like I can talk to her, just being myself, no pretending, and she doesn't judge me. Out of respect for her privacy, I won't post any picture of her in here....

Today, I'm going to go see my grandmother, and I need to do a bit of unpacking, so I will update later, ttyl!!!!!

Song of the day: Crowded house - fall at your feet

Movie of the week: Meet the Fockers

05.07.10

Hey!

I am now 2 and a half weeks into my summer vacation. I spent 3 days in Sandefjord last week, went to the premiere of Twilight Eclipse with a few friends of mine, but after an entire night of watching all 3 of the twilight movies, I think it'll be a while before I read the books or see the movies again:-) It was really fun though, I think the third movie is the best one!!!

We didn't do much on Wednesday, the movie ended at 02,08 am, so we didn't go to bed untill 3am. I spent Thursday seeing a lot of my moms side of the family, it was really nice, haven't seen them in over a year! Friday was spent at the beach, and I am slowly building up a nice tan:-)

This weekend I haven't really got much done, I went to the mall on saturday. I was only supposed to buy a new bikini, but came home with a pair of shoes as well...typical me, I have absolutely no will power. Today(Monday), I am off to Crete for 2 weeks, so there won't be much blogging, I am not sure if I have internet access...we'll see, but a longer update will arrive when I get back!

ttyl:-)

hey!

Due to some computer trouble, I've had to delete my last blog: I choose my choice. I am now starting up again, the adress is pretty much the same, but now in past-time: i chose my choice...

A small runthrough tonight, I will be back tomorrow. I will keep blogging about my life, and several subjects that interests me, and from August and on, this blog will also contain my year at 'Sund folkehøgskole'...

ttyl:-)

Song of the day: Crowded house - don't dream it's over

movie of the week: The graduate